it was time…to finally write again!
So I realized that I never use this blog…but I think that is about to change. I’ve realized that lately I just really need to free my head in order to calm down and that is not possible most of the time aside form blogging. So here we go, a recap of the last few months…
January brought around the new year and a new course load down at school, Southern Illinois University. All things considered it was quite what I was expecting. Long hours and late nights dealing with all aspects of Industrial Design. Frustration and procrastination as I sat around not wanting to do my self-portraits for figure drawing. More procrastination and nearly no studying as art history tests and papers came and went. Oh and of course one could not forget the biology class whose lectures were pointless to go to and Friday labs which were so hard to get up for that I could have probably failed the class if not for an amazing grad student. So to end with an A, 2 B’s and 2 C’s I really can’t complain.
January also brought a new person into my life…or I guess I should say an old friend back into my life. As my family spent a week at our condo in Phoenix I decided that it was time to meet up with our old family friend. Our families have known each other since before I or her were born, but the last time we saw each other was at 6 years old and we’ve only been talking for a good year or two now. My dad surprisingly bought me a ticket to fly out to Long Beach, CA to spend a day with her. Just to prove our parents wrong in the idea that we would one day get married we wanted to hate each other…well not hate but just not really be each others type. Well that didn’t work out too well. On February 14th, yes valentine’s day, Kelsey flew out to see me at school and we’ve been together since. Talk about a distant relationship while in college. Things have been difficult, especially now (will explain later), but she is by far the most amazing girl I’ve ever known and its looking like our parents could have been right from the very beginning…talk about weird.
Spring break this year consisted of spending the whole thing with Kelsey in California, which was amazing. At times frustrating as she was still in school at the time which resulted in days of me sitting around having to find my own stuff to do, but that also resulted in meeting some awesome break dancers from CSULB.
To sum up a month or two…my fraternity got second place in our schools annual variety show as we paired up with the ladies of Alpha Gamma Delta. We won best choreography and music! Now its just going to be my turn to take the position of running it this coming year, wish me luck. We had our Red Carnation Ball (RCB) in St. Louis, which was amazing especially since Kelsey flew out for it once again.
The end of the year was an assortment of late nights and long days full of an insane amount of school work once again, but let us not forget also the search for summer work. What started with a few emails changed into mass emailing, calling and conversations with my professor. I knew that this summer I either wanted to have an internship in Chicago or possibly make my way out to California, but Chicago was looking like the more likely choice. Surprisingly I received a message from my professor indicating that he might have a possibility for me to work for a Southern alumni out in the LA area. Well of course I jumped on that immediately which brings me to now.
As I write this blog I am currently sitting in what would normally be my girlfriend’s room at her parents house. I did indeed get that internship in California and will be out here for the whole summer. In fact I have gone from having the internship with Line 6, inc. to possibly having a second with Steve Saleen, of Saleen motors, who broke off to start a new in devour. I will be working almost every day of the week hopefully and spending the weekends helping Kelsey’s parents with stuff around the house, putting their VW Ghia back together with Kelsey’s dad or going to car shows. Yet here is where everything gets interesting…Kelsey isn’t here. Kelsey is off in Europe for six weeks on a Cal State Long Beach architecture/industrial design trip. I was so excited for her to be going and I wanted her to have a great time…but that was before I found out I’d be out here for the whole summer as well. I still want her to have a great time, but to be living in her parent’s house, sleeping and sitting on the bed where she normally would be is just killing me. She is in Prague, which is a 9 hour time difference…so as I write this at 1:25am it is in fact 10:25am for her. I almost never get to talk to her and it is driving me absolutely insane, resulting in the need to really just blog. I absolutely love this girl and I trust her more then I have ever trusted anyone before, but right now I’m just going insane. Most nights she doesn’t get back until around 3am at the earliest and it just makes me wonder what the hell are they all doing out that late. To make things even harder when she has the chance to leave me just a small hello or I love you or anything for that matter she isn’t taking it, which just kills me. I really hope these next 5 weeks go by fast and easy because if they’re anything like this past week this will be my weirdest summer ever as I am in one of my favorite places in the world and am absolutely going crazy with frustration. I’m exhausted when I get home from work leaving me with no energy to really do the things I like. I know really no one around here who I could go hangout with and don’t get me wrong I absolutely love her parents, but hell I’m turning 20 a week from today and will probably have not a single friend to spend my birthday with. If this is what getting older is like hell I hope everything can slow down soon because the past two years of college have just flown by as a single blur.
Oh and to top things off I’ve decided I need to take control of my life again. I’m going to get back into shape hopefully running every morning and eating right. Financially I’m going to hopefully figure a few things out, investing in a car with my brother and really getting my photography stuff going. I keep saying it, but now I really plan on doing it. If I can make enough this summer I really want to get into a few things that I’ve been wanting to for a while such as starting to DJ. On top of all this I’ve decided to take dancing as seriously as time will allow and take classes and really put breaking and popping into parts of my workout routine.
To say the least I’m hoping that with hitting 20 I will finally hit a point in my life where I can be in control of most of the things I would like to be.
